hmm, well i masturbate on a daily basis and lately i have been losing the sensation i got before,i used to use my fingers but i moved on to other things after i had sex for the first time,i have never used a vibrator or ***** before either.

but i was wondering if ill ever get the sensation back?
should i sit back and relax for a while without masturbating? will that bring the feeling i got back?
and what exactly is the reason for my lost feeling?

Hello everyone….
Well I finally made an appointment to see a psychiatrist. Having suffered from depression, anxiety and addiction off and on for ever. And have only been to see my gp about it. Was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Okay, but what kind? I want to know. I’ve also had panic attacks. I have been on meds in the past but only for short time periods. I just hated the side-effects, and always figured I could get better on my own. I’ve been to counseling which helped for awhile.

We have a family history of mental disorders. My mother, her mother. I have two family members with bi-polar, one with panic disorder and ocd. And I’m sure there are others in the family too judging by behavior. The reason I have decided to seek help, (I can’t tell you how many times I’ve picked up the phone to make the appointment, but I always thought I could get through it if I just tried harder) I recently attended a seminar on "dementia", my Mom has it. The moderator talked about depression, and stated that recent studies have shown a link between some types of dementia and untreated depression, (mom was never treated for it). The moderator told a story about a friend that suffered from depression, and also had a family history of it, but every time she went off her meds, it would return. She now knows that she must be on meds for the rest of her life in order to keep the depression treated. This scared me and I realized I might be in the same boat.

I know that long-term meds are not the answer for everyone, but isn’t that determined by what type of depression you suffer from? I can’t count the times I have tried to pull myself up by the "bootstraps" by reading, listening to motivational tapes, cbt, etc. My depression worsens during "situational" challenges, which in recent years have been monumental even for a "normal" person. But can also still be there during seemingly happy times, although to a lesser degree. So, hopefully the pdoc will have some answers for me, and I will begin the road to recovery. I want to thank everyone for posting their stories here. I think it helps a lot of people. It did for me, and I hope my story can help others too.

I am 7 weeks and soooooooo uncomfortably bloated. Is this normal?
When will it go away? It is so horrible feeling.

Hi everyone. Just a question for you all. I have been having AF cramps for 3 days but yet there is no blood. I am currently TTC and hoping this might be it. Last Friday and Sat, I had some brown spots when I went potty( only on the TP). Didn’t think much of it, but the 15th when I was supposed to get AF ( 26 day cycle) I got the same brownish spots. I have been having AF cramps for 3 days and some pains around my my uterus and ovaries. I normally would think that this is AF but I am wondering if one of these could be implantation bleeding?? I am quite nauseated.. my sense of smell seems to be on overdrive, and I vomit at the smell of things I normally could tolerate. The only way I can better describe it is… While taking a shower I got ill by the smell of my conditioner, I felt like I had it held to my nose and inhaling it . I have been lightheaded, constipated and have tender breasts. I am going to be taking a HPT on Sunday if AF does not start. Any of you have cramps like you were going to start at any time? I keep running to the bathroom checking bec it feels like I have but nothing is there. Thanks for your help
Fae

Ok, so I absolutely hate white milk…however, I can tolerate chocolate milk. Is chocolate milk just as fine for you as white milk? Am I better off to drink choc. milk as opposed to no milk?
Any advice would be appreciated!!

i’m only about 7 weeks pregnant. these midnight trips to the potty keep me awake the rest of the night! i use the bathroom, then toss and turn for 1-2 hours before deciding to come downstairs and login to this message board. i remember my last preg, toward the end, i was getting up every hour to use the bathroom…so i know one trip is nothing….however i can’t get back to sleep afterward! any suggestions? i’m thinking about not drinking anything after 6pm, and seeing if it helps. stephie

I was 44 when dx said PCa last year. It was scary. Gleason 3+4=7, PSA 19.8, clinically T2b or c. My local urologist was clearly qualified to do the removal of the prostate. But I had to decide on which treatment I would be most comfortable with. Scary indeed. The thoughts that traversed my mind included not being here to type this today. I had a history of drug use when I was younger and that was my fear. That I did something to myself, and I was getting my just deserts. Looking back on it, there are people here with this disease that never touched a drop of alcahol, not a taste of drugs, yet they are here just like me. I certainly am not excusing my younger days, only pointing out that I now understand this disease in not discriminatory. I still enjoy my wine. Enter Ruth 14 years ago and goodbye drugs. My wonderful wife. End of the desire for drugs, enter my new spiritual grasp that is a mainstay today. I’m a hard worker and a friend to all who will let me in. So how did this happen? How did I get this dreadful disease? It’s not in the family history. I’m not at the testing age. Why???

Well, I guess I have to leave that question out. Why does not matter and it won’t cure my disease. That’s how I proceeded on How. Not Why. My urologist was an Ivy leaguer and had great bedside manner. He is young and will be a great surgeon, but after careful research I decided he was not my man. I decided on surgery because radiation, while succesful in many cases, was not convincing me that I had complete control of this disease and its treatment. I did not like the fact I still had even part of my prostate alive and in my body. Hind site says that I could easily have had a cure with it if my stage was T2x. But it wasn’t. I chose a surgeon who had 1,500 LRP’s behind his belt. And it paid off. I don’t have incontenance and did not within a couple weeks after the procedure. In fact I still have the pads from my first purchase in my bathroom. The bad news was to come though. Had I had radiation, the fact that my disease was pT3b (4+3=7), and 4 positive margins, would never have come to light until recurrance. I had Stage III cancer….The Big C. My next fear was a few weeks from finding out if it was stage IV. It wasn’t. My PSA dropped out. But I wasn’t convinced I was in remission. First 0.1, the <0.1. Four tests later….<0.1. I still saw the histograms though and I did not like the recurrance rate. I elected to go with Lupron and Casodex combined with IMRT focused on Whole Pelvic treatment (WPRT). Dam the torpedoes! fire them…I just had another PSA result…..<0.1.

My oncologist said I am a model patient. I walked after every IMRT session. 4 miles. I changed my diet. I told him I kept the wine. He told me to enjoy it. Every weekend I excersize either in travels or in sport. I was fearful of Stage IV, but I am no longer. We went over a plan on the what if. What if this recurs? We have a strong plan, but as he said, "you are doing well". I don’t need a two year LHRH treatment. We are planning to remove the HT in December. Me 1, Cancer 0. I hope that others out there with the fear of this disease can see this experience, and fight with you heart. As Jimmy Valvano said….Never Give Up! A champion never relents. I have stage III cancer, but it does not have me…After surgery, HT, oral Chemo, and IMRT my oncologist has declared me in remission.

Tony

I will keep this as short as possible.. point form even

Wife invites an ex-bf over for new years.. (I am aprehesive but reasonable ok with it)

after new years wife starts spending alot of time with old flame (feel about the same)

wife starts staying out to all hours of the night(makes me feel like sh*t can’t sleep)

wife decides things arn’t working out between us we fight alot and she wants me to leave I don’t want to.. I eventually leave sometime in around end of july beginning of august and find a lawyer for separation/devorce proceedings we are not getting along at all her ex is there all the time since I left every night all night I had a hard time dealing with that but eventually overcame it she made it very difficult for me to see my kids every was basically a mess I was depressed all the time lost about 20 LBS I think….

then about 2-2.5 months later she decides she wants me back her ex as attractive much completely moved in and taken over my position in the house I found out when I was there but I agreed to go for a driver with her and talk.. I turned to mush and went back to her she had the ex move out then about a coupla weeks later I find out that she is pregnant with ex’s baby I know it is not mine as I was fixed about 2 years ago.. don’t want any more kids. that made me feel even more like **** as it confirms what I suspected that she was fooling around that hurt alot as well.. as of today I am still with her and she is about 2-4 weeks away from having this baby.

Now how I feel about all this I’ve been having mixed feeling obviously I love my wife(I did marry her after all) but at the same time I’m feeling very betrayed, nervous I don’t know what to expect. I sometimes want to leave but also don’t, it seems like she is planning on keeping the child, she has told me that she is giving it up for adoption but at the same time she is buying baby needs items.. I don’t think I would be able to handle it if she kept it.. everytime I look at it, it would be like getting kicked in the teeth… at the same time though if I ever did decide to leave the whole messy process of separation would start again and I would almost never get to see my kids and I would probably have next to no money after child support payments.. I dunno.. I don’t even know why I’m posting this, don’t know what I’m going to get out of it.. ah well.. C’est La Vie..

anyway any comments, suggestions, criticisms, etc are appreciated.

Black Ice
Life Sucks get a Helmet

Please tell me if my husband and I are normal. We have never celebrated Valentines Day- ever. My husband feels it is a day where retailers over hype the day and it becomes a manufactured day- something like that.

I feel that Valentines Day should not be allocated to just one day, it should be often, not just one day, do we really need a day where we be especially nice to our partner? I also feel the day is too ‘retailish’

Hi There,

Does anyone know what the difference is between a herniated disc and a ruptured disc ?

I was told I had a ruptured disc. On some websites, ruptured and herniated seem to be used as substitutes for each other to mean the same thing. On other web sites I have searched, the two appear to be quite different.

Unfortunately, I haven’t been able to find a clear definition of one versus the other.

Also, if anyone has been through this, I’d be curious as to what physiotherapy exercises you’ve had recommended to you. My physiotherapist has been recommending ‘extension’ exercises and my ortho told me that ‘flexion’ exercises are what I should be doing.

I’d appreciate it if anyone has any thoughts or experiences on this.

Thanks so much, and fine luck to all on back woes.

Dave.

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- hockey impact injury to top of head in Dec. 2002
- physiotherapy & chiropractic visits which did not fix the problem
- pain shooting down into butt, leg, and calf
- numbness in foot
- big pain when coughing, laughing hard, or sneezing. Trouble sleeping at night.
- ruptured disc between L5 & S1